((dear camille: you should really consider downsizing blogs. 3 of them is just way too many to keep control of. love, self))
so many things have occurred since last time i was here. so many smiles. so many goodbyes. so many laughs. so many tears.
but through it all, there is still beauty. there is still a God who cares for someone… even someone as small and dysfunctional as myself. isn’t that just a mind-blowing thought? it is to me…
i don’t have enough time to update y’all on happenings as of the past few months, but i will tell y’all to check out my other blog for more up.to.date info on the happenings as a large overview picture.
but yes. i will try to sum it up in as few words as possible…
-bethel didn’t work out for this fall
-God has given me some amazing friends (Mel, April, Fahs, Soukup, Hope, Libby… just to name a few!)
-i’ve cried more w/in the past four months than in my whole life put together…
-i’ve seen what it’s like to reach the bottom… and kept a smile on my face through it all
-the Lord has carried me through more than i can explain
-reached a point where i didn’t know what to do next (that is rare in my book…)
-took another leap.of.faith
-teaching/breathing/living back in taiwan again.
yes. God brings beauty through pain.
and this song (superchick) basically sums up these past few months….
(feel free to listen to it as well via YOUTUBE)
The lights go out all around me
One last candle to keep out the night
And then the darkness surrounds me
I know i’m alive but i feel like i’ve died
And all that’s left is to accept that it’s over
My dreams ran like sand through the fists that i made
I try to keep warm but i just grow colder
I feel like i’m slipping away
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain
Though it won’t be today,
Someday i’ll hope again
And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
My whole world is the pain inside me
The best i can do is just get through the day
When life before is only a memory
I’ll wonder why God lets me walk through this place
And though i can’t understand why this happened
I know that i will when i look back someday
And see how you’ve brought beauty from ashes
And made me as gold purified through these flames
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain
Though it won’t be today,
Someday i’ll hope again
And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
Here i am, at the end of me
Tryin to hold to what i can’t see
I forgot how to hope
This night’s been so long
I cling to Your promise
There will be a dawn
After all this has passed, i still will remain
After i’ve cried my last, there’ll be beauty from pain
Though it won’t be today,
Someday i’ll hope again
And there’ll be beauty from pain
You will bring beauty from my pain
