yup, I should be doing my homework, but since that’s all I’ve been doing for the last few days, I’m taking a break to write… good for me, eh? 
So, me, being the nerd I’ve turned into, am super excited right now. know why? I totally just got a new textbook! ::happiness:: Yes, i know that’s pretty pathetic, but let’s be honest. the smell of a new textbook is worth the $**** you put into it, right? 
So yeah. that was the hight light for me today.
These past few months have been crazy. so much has happened. like, explainable and unexplainable. however, God continues to show himself new to me in many ways.
I’ve met many new friends, who’ve inspired me and challenged my faith in many ways. for example, this one person i met shared his whole life story with me w/in a day of meeting him. talk about wow. his story moved me to tears, and although there were parts that hurt to hear about, i started to realize that i really don’t have it all that bad. yes, things have happened in my life, but overall God has been amazing to my family. we struggle, and i think it’s because we lose sight of what we are doing, and for WHOM we are here (on earth) for!
One of my classes this semester is ICA (Intro to Creative Arts). At first i was so bummed that i had to take this class when i believed that i could basically *teach* it (c’mon, i grew up w/ music/art/theater… how hard could it be, right?). ha! i was taken aback w/in the first two sessions. when we started getting into the course, i started realizing that it was a course made to challenge us to go deeper than just looking over the surface of our observations. it challenged us to go deeper and think outside the box. wow, i saw a lot more in stuff that i had previously considered “simple”. for example, we went to a MN orchestra concert, and one of the songs moved me to tears! blah. how stupid, i know. but in all honesty, the song, the atmosphere of the room, the music was put together so perfectly that it tugged on some past memories that had ties to them… and it was just about too much for my emotions. weird, right?
yeah, so that’s a good class… much as i’m still not too fond of artwork 
Then we’ve got chinese, a total FAV. class, though i don’t like waking up @7am to get ready in time for it. but i’ve had to start challenging myself, because i realized that, unless you challenge yourself in this course, you can get an A+ and actually not learn anything. so, yeah. i’ve been giving myself some assignments and… we’ll see how that goes.
oh, randomly, i was JUST reminded of Phil 3:13, “Forgetting that which is behind us and pressing for what is ahead…” {my version}. that’s an excellent verse…. yeah.
i’m also starting a music minor, which means more music. i wouldn’t mind so much, but i find that practicing flute is becoming less and less motivating. i started up harp lessons again (::yayness::), but flute is just… idk. i’m not feeling it this year i guess. bumma.
started A&P #1….AGAIN. hopefully i’ll be able to stay up and not get behind this time. i’m really looking forward to doing it — especially since all my exams are open book Nice
Other then that, i’ve just been working on family stuff. yeah, that’s always a fun topic. honestly, all my sisters are out of state and right now they’re all writing odd stories for themselves. it’s hard, cuz i see what they’re doing, and i know that they’re expanding their wings and finding themselves… but it’s odd, cuz it seems like… i don’t even know. it’s just odd. my family has always been the ones whom *i’ve* come back to, but now that i’m at college, i feel like i’m stuck here and they’re all going out and doing things. it’s different, but in a good way a suppose. i am prob. just envious since they’re all our doing stuff and i’m here. yeah, i’m trying to look at the bigger pic. … but i left right away as a child (12-ish) and was gone most of my “growing-up” years… and this is different. not they’re all gone. and i’m not.
ok. now i’m just rambling. and it’s prob. not making any sense (i’m glad i have spell check though… ). but, before i totally let you go, i’ll leave you with a song that i’ve heard several times on the radio… it’s a highly excellent song…
“Three in the morning,
And I’m still awake,
So I picked up a pen and a page,
And I started writing,
Just what I’d say,
If we were face to face,
I’d tell you just what you mean to me,
I’d tell you these simple truths,
Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,
Last time we spoke,
You said you were hurting,
And I felt your pain in my heart,
I want to tell you,
That I keep on praying,
Love will find you where you are,
I know cause I’ve already been there,
So please hear these simple truths,
Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
These are the words I would say,
From one simple life to another,
I will say,
Come find peace in the Father,
Be strong in the Lord and,
Never give up hope,
You’re going to do great things,
I already know,
God’s got His hand on you so,
Don’t live life in fear,
Forgive and forget,
But don’t forget why you’re here,
Take your time and pray,
Thank God for each day,
His love will find a way,
These are the words I would say”
–Sidewalk Prophets
